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Why do you have to be so mean?

Hi pinguin, aku ingin cerita sedikit soal perasaan aku. Belakangan ini aku merasa berat banget untuk tetap bertahan dalam cobaan ini 😢 Aku ga tau kenapa kamu terus menerus memperlakukan aku dengan jahat. Aku kadang hanya ingin tahu apa yang kamu lakukan sepanjang hari, kamu marah. Aku ga tau ketika kamu lagi ada si teman kembali lagi malam itu dan telepon kamu tanpa sengaja kamu marah. Bahkan aku hanya ingin melihat kamu pakai si coffee machine yang aku belikan aja ga boleh. Apa yang aku harus lakukan supaya aku tidak diperlakukan seperti ini terus? 😞 Ada malam-malam dimana aku tuh sangat sedih dan ga tau harus bilang apa sama kamu. Kadang aku menangisi keadaan sku ini. Aku merasa harus berjuang buat dapetin kamu. Merasa bahwa aku tuh seperti mainan yang ketika kamu mau maka kamu ambil dan mainkan, ketika engga kamu buang. Ada hari dimana aku jalan ke Seoul penuh air mata dan pura2 baik-baik aja ketika ketemu kamu karena aku tuh udah janji untuk ga marah dan ga akan pernah kesel ...

First Open Letter For You

Hello little Pinguin, I want to start this letter by saying that I wrote this after I called you. So many things I said then and yet there is more I want to talk about. Perhaps, a letter is better for this. I hope you read this. The future is uncertain. Sure. I, for once, knew it better than anyone else in this world. I had you in my hug and then lost you. If only I knew everything will turn sour I won't ever do all the bad things I've done to you. However, here's the beauty in it, I never even once regretted how I feel about you. Never even once I regret that I love you and still am. I realized that the past is what shaping the future. Looking backward, I fully understand that you are the love of my life. I truly see that I should fight to get your heart again. About treating me bad... Perhaps, this is what we call as karma. I was once treating someone who loved me deeply as if she won't ever leave me no matter what. Don't be discouraged because you felt you ha...